Glimpse of Gods Grace
Yesterday my son turned 18!! Yesterday morning I was praying , God brought the last 20 years of my life in my front!!
I just want to share a glimpse of what God has done in my life.
As a young girl all my dreams shattered and the one who doesn’t know any pain growing up fell apart..I don’t know God during that time, but God’s hand is there throughout the journey!! He lead me every step of the way.. I don’t know then that’s God, I was hurt I cried out to God where are you? I can’t bear this, weeping years in agony every night, I was angry with my Dad for forcing me into the marriage,It was a rough and tough journey… But God kept people in my life to encourage me and uplift my spirit, motivate me, God didn’t leave me in the pain , I have a deep pain but He took care of my all needs, kept me always under the shadow of his people, went to church, very active in doing whatever comes my way.. But yet I don’t know him personally.. I cried in alter calls… but yet I don’t know him personally..I just know him as a God… that’s all…. until I hit rock bottom where my brother who is my support system has to move far.. I was angry with God.. asked him.. why are you like this? Why are you taking my brother away?? He is the only one I have as a family .. Its not fair…sisters how much I cried with pain I can’t explain… I am sick and tired of my life and started searching for God..I felt I was missing something.. so searched God.. went to every conference , attended 2 services on Sunday .. visited every church around , I was literally searched with hunger…
I had an encounter with God..during that season , I don’t know the exact date.. but during the season I found Him !!!! I started reading the Bible with hunger.. I am in Love with him..!!! I surrender my life to him, it’s different than when I went to church when I know him as God and someone I love deeply and falling in love with him is the most amazing thing that has happened in my life…
As I am in so much love with Him and my focus was only him not my problems or pain..I fixed my eyes on him.. I was not sick and tired of my life, I was not looking for any change..I am content with where I am and loving my new found Love in God..
without even pursuing anything God did a miracle in my life, the new chapter in my life started, He gave me this promise when I was searching for him and he fulfilled in my life.
Psalm 103:4–5 4 Who redeemeth thy life from destruction; who crowneth thee with lovingkindness and tender mercies;
5 Who satisfieth thy mouth with good things; so that thy youth is renewed like the eagle’s.
The life I am living now is a miracle of God !! God made beauty out of ashes!!
I started walking with God , He started purging me showing my sin, earlier its all self pity and complaining and grumbling and pointing at others, its always others responsible for my problems.. After I had the encounter then God started showing sin in me..he started His work in me… it was not easy face the reality what God is showing me, I always thought I am very loving and caring as people always appreciate me , but God is showing me the love for self , love for pleasing people , my complaining attitude.. oh boy… it’s hard.. but my love for GOD .. my deep admiration for God made me obey him little by little.. My choice to do whatever it takes to walk pleasing to him changed everything for me.It was not easy but God taught a lesson every fall and every victory .It’s not that I have a happily ever after life… now I have a pain , I don’t see that as a pain or problem, I ask God.. “ What do you want me to learn from this? what are you trying to teach me here? I can’t type everything here…I summarize. It’s worth the pain I’ve been through because the way I enjoy God.. and long to spend time with him..he became a breath to me, I see him in everything every moment.. !! I don’t want to be content with my walk with God, want to know him more and more..dig more and more of his word til he calls me home !! the creator of the universe wants to dwell in me , interested in every detail of my life.. seriously….. I am “work in progress” in His hands , I reflect on my life on my son’s 18th birthday and thought of sharing with you a glimpse of my story!!!
Sisters !!! I know all of you love God thats why you are here, God is writing your beautiful story.!! Press on to
“ KNOW HIM MORE”
“LOVE HIM MORE “
“ OBEY HIM MORE “
It changes everything…!! God bless you all !!